DEPRESSION & THE DEVIL
When you have depression, it feels like a dark monster has taken control of your mind and destroyed everything you once knew about yourself. Its, like everything you used to enjoy, becomes dull and boring, and the bright blue sky you woke up to becomes miserable and painfully bright to look at. You want to hide in the dark and spend your days in bed and your nights online, further indebting yourself to a miserable lifestyle you cannot escape. It's like you are stuck in a time loop of repetitive self-destructive behaviour you cannot escape, and you feel stuck and helpless. No matter how many therapy sessions you go to or pills you take, the darkness manifests deeper inside you, and you become dead inside, waiting for life to end. This, to me, defines my experience living with depression or any mental illness at that.
In Western medicine, we call this soul-sucking experience depression or mental illness. To me, it feels like a dark demonic energy taking control of your mind and sucking out everything beautiful within your own soul to leave you numb and indebted to the self-suffering habits of the underworld. A lot of people dismiss or neglect the spiritual teachings and energies around us, and to become more well-informed, we must acknowledge to some degree that spirituality is among us. I didn’t use to believe in the divine and demonic world growing up; I felt it to be illogical and ridiculous to assume such childish nonsense. It was not until early adulthood I naturally became more connected to the spiritual world as I healed my inner darkness.
The world is not as it seems to be. Through celebrities exposing their darker practices in music and demonic rituals, we can physically see a connection between extreme power and extreme darkness. To deny any presence of angelic or demonic energy on earth would be ignorant, and we must ask ourselves the question: am I depressed, or am I being controlled and ushered into the darkness by something far greater than me? Are my dark thoughts my own, or is someone walking me into the darkness through my own self-suffering?
If you really asses what it feels like to be depressed, do you feel lost and like someone has taken a level of vibrancy and life from within you? Do you feel lured into the darkness to become more unhappy, like someone wants your life on earth to end prematurely? It's like someone extracted your light, and you lost yourself completely, correct? This resembles energy extraction as if someone is taking from you from within. The question becomes, why?
I am not an expert on spirituality; however, I understand that celebrities and powerful figures harness energy from the unconscious and indebted masses. Like they have a spell on you, they distract you with something and extract your energy while doing so. Music concerts are a great example; your income provides access, the music evokes emotion, and the energy felt becomes extracted and used to empower the artist and indebt you to their work. This is repeated over and over in film, music and politics. When you give someone energy, you lose it without understanding why; this applies to people you dislike. Your energy is feeding them for good or for bad.
When it comes to depression, to me, it feels like a monster consumes your mind and sends you down a self-destructive spiral and the person you were no longer exists. Like your soul has been sucked out of you, and your body is an empty shell with nothing left to do but die.
What do you think? Depression and mental illness are deliberately indebting the majority into self-suffering in return for elitist control?
Or am I crazy?
Love, Chiara x